Ladyblog

boy, i have been a bit absent from the blog world, no?  well, i have a tiny excuse.

that’s right, mr. halloran and i are expecting.  that you see there is our nugget.  or d-nugg as my sister affectionately refers to it as.  we are 14 weeks now, and this is the strangest thing in the world.  there’s really no nice way to say this – i’ve felt like shit lately.  absolutely exhausted, sick every hour and a half if i don’t stuff my face, my body is doing weird things, i’m too tired to do things i enjoy, and i’m a little terrified.  or a lot terrified.  i’ve always been the one to be excited about having a baby and being a mom – i like responsible things – while mr. halloran has always been a little tentative.  when he stopped being tentative, we started trying, and then we got pregnant and all i could think about is how our lives are going to change.  we’re pretty selfish people – myself in particular – with our time.  we like to do our own thing on our own terms.  i myself really thrive on that.  and now there’s going to be a little one thrown into the mix that’s going to change all that.  we’re excited, don’t get me wrong.  but i’m nervous.  i think i’m allowed to say that?  having babies is heavy.

i’m finally coming out of the cloud of exhaustion and have felt so good this weekend that i went skiing not once but twice (!).  i’ve been writing people back and talking on the phone and reading books and i’m a little bit back to my old self.  which feels good.  and i think that will ease my fears a little bit.  hooo-eeee.  things are going to be a’ changin’ around here.

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